I did not regret the things that made me smile

Gone are the gloomy & gray
As here comes the brighter day
Also, no more staying in vain
The rain will wash all the pain.
The sun will always be at its brightest.
And with that, I'll be the happiest.😉

2 versus 1

During the times when my day is as gloomy as the clouds outdoor, I couldn't forget how God poured the rain and washed away my discomfort and loneliness like a drought that I'd faced for sometimes. I say that it washed me, because when I've encountered these 2 guys, I felt the happiness rushes to my blood stream.

It started when I was looking beyond the corner of our office, there's this first guy who's  glancing to me, I've just ignored him at first, but oftentimes, it caught my attention as I know there's no other guy standing off my back for him to look at. By then, I knew that I was also attracted to him. So I reciprocated his gesture by smiling all the time he'll look towards from a distance. Without him knowing that he's the reason behind that smile. Yes, I got strucked because he's 1 of my ideal guy, tall, white, chinky-charmed and more importantly decent. Eventually, I sent him a message via email to let him know of what my intents are, but  unfortunately, he  just ignored it. Days passed, and he  became cold, there was some instance he won't even stand to look for me at all. With that, I decided to no longer pursue him.


At the same time, during those times when I was kinda looking & searching for him, I coincidentally, saw a guy that has a resemblance with him...charming too, fairer complexion, not skinny unlike him, but as tall as him. Then, when I  was so dismayed and preoccupied if the first guy still liked me or if it's just me who assumed that he feels the same way too. The rainbow came after the rain.:-) 
Surprisingly, another guy, had  been passing by in front of me. Like all of a sudden he came from no where and I was like fascinated because when I was about to look at him, he already staring at me. Not only that I caught him looking at me on some occasion but also I frequently saw him almost bumped.whenever I'm about to look at him too. After that, I ponder upon, on what should I do to be with him. And since we have a common friend, I favorably asked my closed friend to introduced us together, and finally we've MET!



 

Treasurable

Whenever I reminisced our good memories we had together, it always made me smile but at the same time, those cherishable memories hurt me at some point.

Those were as precious as gems or mybe beyond compare, and would 4ever be grateful to you that once there was someone who brought immeasurable joy to my life, and would have it kept inside my heart  as time progress...and 1day when my mind would probably forgets about everything, i'm sure that tiny bits stored here with me would remind me  how precious & dear you were to me.😍

 At present, iM content, longing still yet looking forward, choosing to be happy despite of what i'd been thru. And above all, i have high hopes that true love will soon come again with no more goodbyes.😉

when ur gone

Since we've parted, i'd been thru to the stage of the so called 'moving on'. I realized that I'm not at fault and haven't done anything wrong to r relatnshp that could make him  leave me w/o any reason. But so he did, and after a while,i realized that he might have left me hanging and clueless because he doesnt want to hurt me...i guess it'S just his way, for me to figure it out bymyself. Where as the brave man most of the times shows actions rather than words...as if like better  to not say anything to anyone rather than  to have formal closure(which i prefer) instead of an argument, that may leads to hurting each others feeling, or might as well one should just go away silently w/respect.  Eventhough, i also had not been vocal about my feelings for him... nor have not even uttered any words of endearment coz i was unsure as to what should i feel , however, i'd been able to show and freely express my thoughts by my action towards him during our intimate times together. It wasn't just an ordinary fling, strange as it may seem but there's something special i feel about him which I've contemplated,assumed and til i later confirmed that it was a REAL LOVE that i had for HIM.

Colder

It's not as cold as as winter in another countries but what is this I'm feeling? Is it literally cold because of the weather or I just feel that I'm cold as ice also because I had no "joa"? (hemmm). 

It's been quite a while since we parted, however, whenever I felt the coldness, I still think about his presence with me being together as if it gives me comfort and warm, but sadly I'd realized that, it just becomes colder due to his  absence, and ofcourse as much as I'd love to bring back the past but it'd be just a daydream.

Nonetheless, I still have many things to be thankful for especially this cold season,..the x'mas time when we used to celebrate together with my loved ones, not only that this season I can show my genuine love for others but also we can share with our happiness which is the most significant for the said event.

Boyce Avenue

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OP_hGBzwSg&list=RD4OP_hGBzwSg#t=9

Sound Track of my movin on...